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Last Saturday, I went out with a few of my friends { Winnie, Karyn , HC & Xin lu } to Capers in Bandar. The food wasn't really that good at all because I've had better. The bill was $60+ for the 5 of us. Despite the unsatifying food, I loved the decorations on the plate and the restaurant's. At the end of the day it didn't really matter that the food sucked because I had a great time :P after going out with them I went to see MIB3 the movie. I would totally recommend people to watch it!
Well I promised a long post last week and due to my freaking laziness I decided to postpone it because I was so tired. These are afew things my mum bought from Hongkong for me. Just wanted to share some with you guys :) Enjoy! { p/s : non of the things are for sale }
Anyway I'm flying off to Kl and Singapore tommorow. So I will update once I get back :) . Will miss all of you :D Sucks that I have to miss alot of events today :( oh well.... Much Love, Junex


Tuesday, May 29, 2012, 0 Comments

My secret.

Okay I'm just gonna write about 3 things that would make me possibly cry everytime I think of it. 1) Not gonna state this because it's too personal.
2) My family members getting sick or is hospitalized. I got a call this noon from my aunt that my grandmother is sick and is hospitalized at the moment and I can't go to KB to see her because I have my exams coming up which really isn't a valid reason.
3) You. You, My adorkable kejidiot. It's been almost a year since we broke up... This was a relationship that I did not shared with most of my friends. No matter how hard I try to hate you I still end up realizing I'm lying to myself that I still love you. I hate you for what you did but love you for what we had. All I think about is you. You're the reason why I'm afraid to go to sleep because I'm scared of seeing you in my dreams and wake up crying because you're just an illusion you're not really there. You're the reason why I can't play most games and go on msn or do basicly almost anything on the internet because of everything we used to do together. Remember all the times we webcamed? Skyped? Msn-ed? Ventrillo-ed? Played Omgpop? Sang to each other? the calls? the night calls until one of us sleep? Remember how much you wanted my picture ? All the time we spent playing maplestory? dota? LoL? pokemon online? counter strike? I still read our old conversations. I really do miss you so much. I remember how so many people tried to break us up. Remember how jealous and angry you were when there were guys flirting with me? I learned so much from you.... you really were my first real relationship but you decided to end it for no apparent reason, you wouldn't tell me why. I acted like everything was fine like the stubborn person I am. Cried every chance I get, every moment I think of you for over 6 months. I tried getting over you, I said to myself I had to but I can't ... I still love you as much as I did before. I miss you so much. Everytime I look at something green, I remember how much you loved green. When ever I see an MMV , I think of all the times we used to be together. and how that stupid annoying alex would tease me and you would protect me. I said I wouldn't forgive you but still, I forgave. And deep down I know that if you apologized for what you did.. I would still say yes. I lost so much. The moment we broke up, I knew my life would suck. Because I survived each day just because I could spend time with you... we were together for a year. I don't know what you are up to now... but it would break my heart even more if I knew you moved on and is inlove with someone else. I'm still waiting for you. I still keep all the things and letters you sent to me... It has your scent you know? I take it all back just letting you dissappear in my life and thinking you would come back.. You promised you would never leave me. No matter how everyone tells me to move on... it's just not that easy.. I wish you were here right here, right now. I really miss seeing your face and all your jokes that make me laugh. Your ability to make me smile is really amazing. I always smile and laugh trying the hardest to keep everything in. You are one of my longest secrets... It took me so long to write this because I would break down and stop writing and I was in doubt whether to post this or not. but here it is. and you probably won't even see this. I'll stay foolish and selfish for not wanting you to let you go because you're a big part of my life and also in my heart. I love you.
For those who read this and having negative thoughts about me... I am not writing this for symphaty. I need no symphaty. I am writing this to dedicate to that one person. I improved though, I have friends who do help make life alot better and I'm moving on in life but my feelings for him is still there.. Yeah I do break down but I try not to because I cherish everything I had with him. Much love, Junex


Friday, May 18, 2012, 0 Comments

Facts about me :)

1) My birthday is on 27th of December
2) I know when to be serious and when to be a complete retard
3) I am that one friend that you might regret being friends with because I am so crazy.
4) I love pink alot!
5) I have 2 brothers no sister(s)
6) I dislike people who are rude to their elders.
7) I don't like people who are ignorant and self-centered
8) I can be bossy and loud when I am frustrated
9) I have awesomesauce adorkable friends. Eg; wtyh, wui min , diila, arumi , bassir, haqimie, chern, trish , kevin , nana and other lovablee people that I did not mention.
10) I love my family despite them being so mean to me.
11) Family is always first to me .
12) I am someone who is hard to deal with at times.
13) When I set my mind on something, i make sure I get it.
14) I love making new friends and meeting all kinds of people with different backgrounds.
15) I don't like to express any feelings that will make me depressed
16) I bake and do house work to release my anger or sadness
17) I used to be a maple addict.
18) I am very very tomboyish even if I love pink and makeup.
19) My brothers forces me to play many online games like for example LoL , Dota, maple story and pokemon online
20) I hate HATE guys who spend more time playing games than talking to their girlfriend.
21) I love baking and cooking
22) I love charizard and togepi
23) I don't like people who doesn't care about other's feelings.
24) I love writing compositions.
25) I miss the good old days.
26) I am not as childish as you think I am.
27) I love music especially pop.
28) I am a hardcore fan of taylot swift's 
29) My parents are very good to me.
30) I am not what you will think I am after reading afew facts. No my parents doesnt love me more than my brothers they love us equally.
31) Most of proud achievements are because of people like my grandmother and uncles who have supported me even my family.
32) you can joke with me.
33) I am a great listener . I am so great that my brother said I could be a dictective because I can easily find flaws in what people are saying.
34) I am a huge kejidiot when it comes to love.
35) I thank people who have let me down before because now I certainly have lower my expectations .
36) I am a dreamer and a realist
37) I want to sky dive someday.
38) I love blogging very much it is like my public diary.
39) I like learning new things everyday.
40) my grandma loves me alot and keeps
Me humble and wise
41) I think people who talk big about themselves but do things that aren't right are bigger idiots than I am.
42) I am not a rule breaker.
43) I like finding out shorter ways to do things
44) I am eager to learn as many things and experience as many things as I can until I reach 20 years old.
45) Do not start arguments with me . I will make you bloody cry.
46) You can insult me but not my love ones.
47) I used to be really active because during my primary years I did alot of things and performed alot.
48) I don't know to swim but then again I won't drown unless u push me out of a helicopter in the middle of the pacific ocean that is.
49) I used to have a close relationship with my dog which passed away a few years ago while I was out with my friends.
50) I am awesome and it's a fact.



Much love,
junex


Wednesday, May 16, 2012, 0 Comments

Why don't you love me? Well I'm not your princess

It's been a while since I've last blogged. I apologize for that. It's just that I can't seem to put each and one of my thoughts into words and sentences that fit them perfectly inorder for them to make sense. I'm having my exams but they are ending on 21st of May which is soon haha. I'm gonna write everything I would like to talk about and they wont be written in order since I am not a calender. Right now we're all built up with pressure from school or maybe from ourselves? Because the requirements from our teachers are too damn high and the test of our life is getting closer and closer each day. I don't even know how to make myself mentally prepared for all this. It's just too much. So far the worst few papers are Chemistry(suprisingly) and Geography. Malay was quite bad too but you all know I suck at malay . I only know how to act speaking it fluently trolololol. If Bahasa melayu was reading things off a book then maybe I'd get good marks for it haha. I spent hours memorizing peribahasas and only 3 came out but out of 5. The teacher made it a pretty big deal -_-. Oh for those who don't know... peribahasa is kinda like Idioms or sayings but in Bahasa Melayu which is a language ...obviously. Haha these few days has not been the best. I can't quite think properly. To the extend when someone is telling me a good joke which I would usually laugh at , I didn't. Instead, I looked at my book blanked. I don't know what happened but I've been having too many problems again all at the same time. I am not capable of keeping in so much pain so I had to release it. I broke down on the way to school the other day, I didn't want my mum to know so for the whole drive to school I was looking out my window silently weeping or well just silently having tears roll down my eyes and then after I got out of the car I ran up the school stairs weeping just TRYING to be as quiet as I can be. My head was low because I didn't want anyone I know to see me but I knew one of my classmates were right behind me. The more he tried to run up the stairs at my pase the faster I ran. Even when I was walking to our class he was still trying to poke into my business but I know he had all the good and right intentions. I took a deep breath into class but I knew there was no way for me to escape this without anyone knowing. My head was alittle too low, there was no smiles or greets from me to my friends which was unusual, I walked alittle too fast, I left my bag on my desk alittle too hard, I accidentally gave out a breath of air and accidentally slammed the door. And that was it, I couldn't stop or control myself after that. My friend yingying, who was studying conforted me though which was nice of her and so did my other friends and some of my friends for example : KAI JIE. made fun of me but made me laugh haha. It's good to have great friends. People who are just down to earth honest. Speaking about friends, when I was scrolling down my picture files I came across alot of pictures I took with my old friends like the ones I took when I was on my school trip to Guangzhou, China. or people from my old school. I miss them. very much. It's been too long that I almost forgot their voices. I need to see them soon.. Okay this is it for today! I hope you enjoy reading my lame post. I promise to update more and not be a lazy bum. Goodnight & sweet dreams my McRawrrers! Much love, Junex


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Be happy with who you are, you were born to do something in this world.

No matter what, there is always a guy. A guy hurting me, a guy making me happy. Most of the time, it is a guy hurting me. Making me hurt. Making me feel jealous purposely. Treating me like a tool, playing my mind like a doll. But, I am stupid enough to let him do it because.. I know that, I am lying to myself. But despite all that, I will never ever ever doubt a guy that I don’t know. But it makes me angry, thinking that I was someone special when I was just another dumb girl who fell into their trap. I wished life was easier but then I realized how lonely I was. I don’t always need a guy... I need a friend too. I know everyone has been in a situation when they just wake up from a big dream and realized they don’t know who their true friends are and that they have no friends to be utterly utterly honest. I wonder how many tears I’ve shed just because of someone who was not worth or never will be worth it. I wonder how many nights I stayed up wondering what I did wrong. I wonder how many times have I cried myself to sleep thinking why does it have to happen to me? Especially when they don’t even know or remember what they did to me. I don’t seek revenge or anything because I would never want to be someone who once tried to bring me down. I love how they were so good in acting.. making me believe I was someone important. I forgive them now since I’ve grown up alittle but I would never be able to forgive them..it still haunts me. I still cry at night having these problems and other problems that are my own secret. The feeling is horrible. I hate how people pretend to care about me or use me just to get attention to themselves. But one the bright side is, after a dark cloudy rainy day, the sun will soon appear after it is over. And I would always be thankful of that friend. Sometimes I ask myself, Am I really that hard to like? Let alone, love? There must be something wrong with me because I never amuse or amaze anyone. It’s a shame. Sometimes the pain was so unbearable I wouldn’t know what to do but just cry and cry and cry. Not having anyone to talk to. But.. I am much happier right now than I was ever before. For the first time, I don’t really need to think about what I should say, there is no pressure for me to feel, there is no competition for me to win , there is no need for me to be sad especially because of any of my friends. They are all good to me. I don’t have dramas. I don’t create them so I don’t deserve them. It is not my business whether someone likes me or not anymore. My business is what I think and concerntrate on the people who actually loves me for me. I like how stupid I can act around them without thinking “I shouldn’t have done that” There is just no pressure and I could be care-free. There was a few fake friends that I had came across during my experience but they mean nothing to me. Therefore, they won’t hurt me. I am always misunderstood which is ok I guess since everyone have their own opinions but it’s the people who tell me the truth or consult me that makes me really happy even if they misunderstood me. I just need to work hard. You can never run away from your problems because a new one always pops out . That is all!
Much love,
Junex


Tuesday, April 3, 2012, 0 Comments

Yesterday Winnie and I had to go to my school's staff office because we needed confirmation for taking extra subjects in our olevel examination. So we talked to the face of the office and she said us ' huh?? Psr take extra subject???" then i told her we are olevel students then she went OHHH me and winnie looked at each other like waaatdefuk. For those who don't know , psr is a goverment exam for year 6/grade6/primary 6 kids and olevel exam is a goverment exam for year 11 students... Trololol fail. Anyway after school I had to go back to school at around 3 because I join the school english debate class as eca . There was only 3 year 11 students while the others are year 10 students! Wth!!! We had to do this voting thing where we vote for chairperson, asst chairperson , secretary and public relation officers HAHAHAAHHA it was so retarded we, the year 11 decided to nominate for each other HAHAHA and .. I didnt expect us to actually have position ... Wtf they dont even know us but they voted for us!! So nice of them tho! Bassir is asst chairman . I'm secretary . And ruby and viel are public relation officers hahaha. It was fun. Just what i expected and I enjoyed it. Too bad my friends aren't in the same eca as me :( . Oh and my friend jordan bought be the cute merry go round music thingy . So pretty! Thanks jordan

Much love,
Junex


Saturday, March 31, 2012, 0 Comments

Don't judge a person by their school uniform.

HELLOOO MC RAWRREERS!

I've been making iPhone cover designs and calculator designs for some people (for free -_-) and it turned out quite nice! I'll upload the pictures in my next post (hopefully) . Anyway my exam is next week so I don't think I will be blogging for a week I guess. I've been trying to install maplestory on my own laptop but I seem to be having alot of errors ok enough about that. I need to diet T_T why must food make peepole fat. So starting today I won't be eating much :[ no food. HAHA I blended a low cal smoothie for myself it tastes nice! So I'll be doing that for a while. Oh! we're starting our friday extra classes now in school so whoop whoop . so fun... I hate how I overthink at night because my friends and teacher told me ghost stories... My gosh.. I don't get enough sleep and I try not to sleep in the afternoon ( my tution is at night) so that I would be more tired and be able to sleep at night.. I'm wrong -_- oh well maybe I should go exercise and make myself tired HAHAH. I MUST RESIST!!!!!!!!! :) Before it is too late. After turning 16 losing weight will be a pain . SOOO!!! I MUST!!!! TRY MY BEST!! support?


Much love,
Junex


Friday, March 30, 2012, 0 Comments

hello

Warning!! Rant below
People who can't have others free and happy when they are busy with work are rude! I dislike it. So what? You have alot of work.. just do it and don't drag what someone was happy about down! Saying things that are not needed to be heard is really annoying! You can't just think about yourself you know. Jeez.

and another thing is, I dislike people who don't listen to what their parents say and talk badly of their parents. Small things like being slow is ok but not saying They are stupid or anything. In my opinion, no matter how bad you're parents are at times you should always be thankful of them , they are the one providing you with all the facilities you have now... unless your parents severely abused you or like raped you or something. They don't have to give you money or buy you things you know? They can just throw you out of the house which would be way way easier than spending most of their money on you and your education. It's really sad to witness someone bullshitting about their parents. When you grow up, You'll know they were right. Yeah I know, they get annoying sometimes but there is a limit to what to say and not to say. We teenagers are very hard to handle and very rebellious so sometimes you can't handle it but just think about what you are about to say first.

Anyway HAHHA i know I am such a rant-er.



Much love,
Junex


Tuesday, March 27, 2012, 0 Comments

Hello mc rawrrers! Sorry I'ven't blogged in a little while ahha. I've been busy with my holiday homeworks and with chubby. ( who is chubby you ask? I'll talk about that later) I've been helping my mum with house stuff and ya know etc (procastinating). So yeah i'm gonna talk about chubby now. Chubby is my new dog he's a cute , friendly and VERY energetic fellow! I fell in love with him when I went to pick him up. He is a golden retriever and golden retrievers are one of my favourite dogs! I love him with all my heart and have been taking care of him. I wasn't sure what I should name him I was split between mocha and chubby because he is kinda a slightly mocha colour and he is chubby xD but obviously I decided to call him chubby. I've been teaching him tricks like sitting down and crossing drains LOL and he seems to be a fast learner. Well that's all he's making me very happy and i'm glad



Much love,
Junex


Friday, March 23, 2012, 0 Comments

Today i made cartoon cloud cupcakes or that's what i call it, i made it with no recipe! But came out well. Had fun making it! Looks ugly tho. But it's ok

Much love,
Junex


Sunday, March 18, 2012, 0 Comments

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