ᕙ(⇀‸↼‶)ᕗ Rawrr

I'm finally bakubaku in bruland (: . I've been m.i.a because I've been travelling for the past month, i was in China for 12 days, it felt like forever for some reason, and i came home to brunei for a week or so where I got the chance to attend our class's reunion and I brought my beloveds to seria with me and coincidentally met nana and afew other buddies. The next day, I flew to hongkong and I was in china for a few days and well I was on vacation for 10 days and I just got back yesterday, So I've been having a good time and feeling happy, kinda good to be able to feel happy again.. I've finally opened my eyes and realized someone who's been there for me and see me go through quite alot. I'm glad to have him in my life. Butbut I don't want to kiss and tell :). Anyway I've actually been alittle stressed with school. The process oh god I really hate it, its so troublesome :| . I really hope everything works out for me :1. I need to get outta here and study. That's it for now. Tara my beloveds :)

small talk

Is it weird knowing that, in your whole entire life, you're one of those people who seem so amazing and awesome to people in the first week but after that everything slowly goes downhill. The thing is, people get bored of me, after sometime. Not everyone can deal with my bs and me, I'm glad that some people do but most of them no. It kinda hurts really, I've never felt this way about anyone really. I don't know what about me that just gets boring after awhile youknow? is it because I give away too much too quickly? idk nobody tells me about it but I can feel it, and it has always been that way that's why I've always been hoping around different friends to avoid things like this from happening. I just wish someone could tell me youknow? so I can change myself for the better.

Love,

Junex

HELLLO

I'm so sorry for the lack of updates but I'm back! Lots of things have happen these past few weeks for example; I went blonde.

so yeah, it came out brighter than I expected and to be honest, I was shitting bricks and panicking because I wasn't used to the colour on me but I grew to love it and accepted it HAHAH. I dyed my hair because (this is gonna sound stupid) I was upset and I needed a distraction so yeah I dyed my hair, Too bad it's now more of an orangey kind of colour like this;

well yeah, but I love both when it was bright and the colour my hair is now. HAHA

OH I've been wanting to get some piercings on my left ear for a while now and 2 weeks ago I finally went all "Y.O.L.O" and did it and here is what it looks like;

HAHAH it doesn't look cool enough for me but I can't wait to be able to change the earrings gawshhhh I must be patient this time TT______TT . I love it tho :). The earrings are actually small golden hearts but they look more like circles in pictures!

Oheres a random pic of me in blue hair;

^got bored the other day,

okay so... the reason why I made this post was not because I wanted to talk about my hair,piercings etc

I wanted to rant alittle.

So here goes, Alright.

I can't do this. I hate feeling like this. I know you need your space and I know you don't feel like talking but I miss you. I freaking. freaking miss you so much until a point where it really hurts. I wanna be able to talk to you, I wanna hear your voice, I wanna hear you sing but I can't.. and I'm trying my best to show that it's really okay when it isn't. I know I sound alittle like

P/s you're so pretty laina T_T

oh where was I.. OH, okay well, yeah I sound like her^ but I can't help it and you can't blame me. I hate feeling this way but I feel it all the time, I know whatever we have is one-sided but I don't care.. and I'm too big of a fool to let go. I'm weak. I'm not as strong as I used to be, I wish I was but I'm not. I'm happy you leave me messages though it's thoughtful of you, I understand you're going through a hard time and you don't want to put it out on me but.. I still can't help but feel the way I do.

Love you, kejidiot.

Anyway since I don't wanna end my post with my rants, Enjoy pictures of food!

okaiis that's it for now.

Love,

Junex